"And now for something completely different." ~ Monty Python
It was an interruption of destiny...
A tough decision to make...
A choice between keeping hold of him or to suffer for some time to let go.
It's the question of whether or not someone who is co-dependent should remain in a relationship.
I'm caught every time between sweet lines of poetry and sappy love songs.
"Roses are red, violets are blue..."
The thought lingers...
The feelings remain...
I know he is part of my destiny, in some form or fashion.
I know I need to be making decisions for myself.
I need to exercise my right to make my own choices.
But, it feels as if I'm unable to make this particular decision.
It feels as if something else is controlling me.
My desire to be loved?
Or could it be my rationality, whatever little bit there may be left?
No. Love isn't rational. Your heart isn't rational. Emotions aren't rational.
Or are they?
Among all the widgets and apps that exist, I have yet to find one to make a rational decision for me.
I know every rose has it's thorn.
Could it be that I just need to learn how to hold it to avoid being pricked?
I've searched and searched for someone else to provide me an answer - tell me what to do.
And with all the unanswered questions and strong emotions, the only conclusion I've come to is...
Just for today....
I have "admitted I am powerless over my emotions - my life has become unmanageable."
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