"And now for something completely different." ~ Monty Python
It was an interruption of destiny...
A tough decision to make...
A choice between keeping hold of him or to suffer for some time to let go.
It's the question of whether or not someone who is co-dependent should remain in a relationship.
I'm caught every time between sweet lines of poetry and sappy love songs.
"Roses are red, violets are blue..."
And yet...
The thought lingers...
The feelings remain...
I know he is part of my destiny, in some form or fashion.
I know I need to be making decisions for myself.
I need to exercise my right to make my own choices.
But, it feels as if I'm unable to make this particular decision.
It feels as if something else is controlling me.
Love?
My heart?
My desire to be loved?
Or could it be my rationality, whatever little bit there may be left?
No. Love isn't rational. Your heart isn't rational. Emotions aren't rational.
Or are they?
Among all the widgets and apps that exist, I have yet to find one to make a rational decision for me.
I know every rose has it's thorn.
Could it be that I just need to learn how to hold it to avoid being pricked?
I've searched and searched for someone else to provide me an answer - tell me what to do.
And with all the unanswered questions and strong emotions, the only conclusion I've come to is...
Just for today....
I have "admitted I am powerless over my emotions - my life has become unmanageable."
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11 comments:
Marvin here and I am first! Yippee! 8 points Earthling! Glad am I to see you joining us on this subject!
Thank ya sir! :)
Great write--often when we know we are emotional--that is not the time to make that decision and just let things be. I love how you put this together--just excellent. I've been there--I can so relate!! Cheers, Jenn.
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Thank you. Feels like I'm never NOT emotional though. lol
Sometimes you just have to look out for #1, especially when there are children in your home. I know you will or have made the right decision.
very intriguing read that i can relate to very much!!! good post
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I try not to make decisions when I am emotionally torn because inevitably, it will be a decision that I will regret.
I've learned that if I can't make a decision then I don't. Making decisions in life must be done with thought and care. When you're not able to do that, then the decisions can wait.
You're not alone. I've been in your shoes many, many times. Just sit, quietly, and wait. When the time is right, the decision will come to you and not before.
nice thoughts. so relate-able. thanks for sharing, what seems to be something personal.
I can relate to your post. Whenever I'm in a dilemma, the question I usually ask is "will I regret this more or that". But trying to make a decision in an emotional state is probably not a good idea. Good luck.
It is always best to make life altering decisions when your head is screwed on straight. Emotions are powerful things and can skewer everything out of whack including your perspective. Great post!
Kathy
http://gigglingtruckerswife.blogspot.com/
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